Happy New Year! I assume by now everyone’s parties are over and day-to-day life is meandering along again as per usual (now that we’re nearly to the end of January). I’ve finally managed to stop writing 2015 on everything, but now I find myself writing 2017 or 2019 instead. No, I haven’t the slightest clue why I’ve skipped to those years.
Did you make any resolutions? I stopped making resolutions a few years ago when I realized I was turning them into a source of stress, worry, and yet another reason to feel not good enough when I fail. Now I write a pie-in-the-sky list of everything I’d like to accomplish. Each individual item is something that can be completed by year’s end, but the entire list as a unit, realistically, cannot.
Surprisingly this does not set me up for failure. Instead it ensures that I don’t forget about any of my projects unless I willfully choose to give up on them. It’s a focus list to keep me moving in the direction I want. If I reach the end of the year with a shorter list than I began it has been a productive year. I focus on ending each year productive in general rather than qualifying how productive it may have been.
There are several things I am focusing on this year, but perhaps the most important to me is what I am calling “creative balance”. In looking back at 2015 I noticed a lot of personal guilt when it comes to responsibilities. I have a very difficult time doing anything creative when there are household chores to be done. (And there are always chores to be done.) At the same time, avoiding creative work makes me depressed and depression leaves me even less inclined to tackle regular chores. Do we see the vicious cycle?
To some degree these parts of myself cannot be changed. What I can do is learn how to balance them in the most productive and least detrimental way possible. Less focusing on total completion and more focus on positive progress. I feel it is more important to give a little bit of time to each group of creative things on my list than to let all but one or two of the things fall by the wayside. It might make progress slower on an individual task level, but on the big picture scale I actually manage to achieve more.
As far as writing and publishing goals go, this is my year of the message in a bottle. Last year was the first time I began to put serious consideration into sending my work out to journals. Over the year I completed 19 different submissions. I was putting my toe in the water and gauging the effort it might take to swim. So far I have received only rejections – though a couple of those submissions are still being reviewed – but it has not deterred me. I believe in my work. I believe in my voice. And with time, effort, and a dash of luck, I believe other people will believe in my words enough to share them too.
I’d like to say that this year my goal is to get just one acceptance letter. That, however, is not within my control, and goals that are not within my control are most often detrimental to my well being. What is within my control is the effort spent researching journals and submitting my work.
I can control how many bottles I throw into the ocean. I cannot control what the ocean does with them.
Here’s to 2016, a year of creative balance, believing in my work, and finally doing something I’ve dreamed about for most of my life. (More on the last one later in the year.)
What do you hope 2016 will bring you?
*Image taken from Pixabay, creative commons license, user Settergren